‘I felt so ashamed and blamed myself’: WWE icon Nikki Bella reveals harrowing particulars of double rape as teenager

Harrowing excerpts from WWE Corridor of Famer Nikki Bella’s memoir reveal she was sexually assaulted on two separate events, each whereas she was in her teenagers.

Californian Bella has launched her memoir ‘Incomparable’ – penned with twin sister Brie – and it incorporates some really surprising revelations in regards to the WWE wrestler’s upbringing, together with two accounts of when she was topic to sexual assault by older males.

Bella, 36, actual title Stephanie Nicole Garcia-Colace, says the primary incident concerned her being raped by somebody she regarded as a good friend, and occurred when she was simply 15. The second rape was perpetrated by a college-age man when she was 16.

And whereas she stored particulars of the assaults secret, they sadly had an enduring impact, coloring her relationships for a few years afterwards.

“When that occurred to me, I instantly simply felt so ashamed and blamed myself, and that is what made me wish to maintain it such a secret,” she writes.

“And preserving secret and blaming myself, I began to lose my confidence. I began to disrespect myself. After which the relationships I acquired into at a younger age, I let different folks disrespect me and felt like, that is okay, that is what I deserved.”

Bella, who went on to look in WWE spin-off actuality present ‘Complete Bellas’ was in a relationship with fellow WWE legend John Cena for six years, and he or she credit him with having a really optimistic influence on her, serving to her to ‘respect herself.’ She’s now engaged to Dancing with the Stars’ Artem Chigvintsev. 

But it surely wasn’t plain crusing, as she and Cena spent most of their relationship below intense scrutiny – she was even accused of producing their break up to assist her present’s scores.

Of her relationship with 46 year-old Cena, she writes within the guide that: “As a result of I used to be fearful of dropping my love, I stuffed my want for marriage and youngsters as deep as I may. He (Cena) had made it clear that they weren’t on the menu for him. That is robust, although, as a result of for those who’re inclined that means, then the extra you develop to like somebody, the extra you need all of it.

“I ended giving voice to these wants, although. I used to be frightened my ex would name it off and let me go. And whereas I wished these issues very badly – I simply wished him extra.”

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